I am a married woman…I have been married to my husband for 7 years, he works out of town a lot, that is the job he has takes him out of town a lot, and I know when he is out of town, he cheats on me, I know, he denies it, but I know he does. I know I am not taking care of him sexually, that is because he does not “let” me, he does not want to do certain things with me, for what ever reason, I am game for anything, we are husband and wife, why not….but our intamacy is lacking, so I know he does certain kind of women to full fill what ever it is he is after, I know what he likes, but again, he does not want it from me. We have a bad sex life, (unless we are drunk) and I am sure boredom has set in, that is why he is cheating on me, he likes certain kind of women…..
He used to make me feel so womanly, but lately I feel nothing like an object just living with him….I miss being touched like a woman, touch my body, make me feel good all over, I miss that, I have not felt that in so long, I crave it, see it on tv and get sad, because I want to be touched like that as well, deep passionate love making…..so my mind wonders….now I understand why some women do chat on their husband’s, it is not right, not saying that, but I understand…and sometimes I think about it to…wanting to be touched, and have a passionate love making, where he totally touches you every where, kisses you so deeply, touches every fiber of your body, and not just focus on one part…there is more to a woman’s body than just her pussy!! we have a whole body to be touched…and I miss it, never really had it before, where a man touches you all over, and makes you feel like a woman and a half….so my mind wonders about having an affair, desperate to be touched, and fucked really good, but then my conscience takes over and I cannot do that to my husband, even though he is doing it to me, so it is a battle.
Because my husband cheating, I am thinking about leaving the marriage…it honestly has been over in a lot of areas for along time, so leaving has been on my mind. If I do, never will I be in another relationship….be on my own and have some serious fun!!!!!