I used to worry that I liked sex too much. I’m one of those girls who can cum from the right kind of touch, I’m almost always right on the edge of arousal and orgasms are a given. I don’t understand women who talk about never having an orgasm. For me, it’s more about losing count. And I used to worry that I was strange or wrong, that my desire was odd.

I don’t worry that I like sex too much now. After a 10 year marriage, where the last 4 or 5 years were virtually sexless, I just worry about finding a partner who is as interested as I am. I’m really just looking for someone who’s ready when I am, who wants it as bad, who can’t keep his hands off me. It was really frustrating to be married to someone who had been so passionate and willing before we got married and then so inhibited afterward, it was like he just stopped being interested once he got the ring on my finger.

Before we were married, before we were even really dating (I was 19 and still lived with my parents), he’s sneak into my bedroom every morning, cold from the walk over to my house, and we’d have sex until it was time to go to class. We used to have sex everywhere! At my house while my parents were out, or sometimes quietly while they were there, outside on the grounds of UNBC, at night in closed classroom on campus, in the car, basically anywhere and everywhere, but when we moved into an apartment, he stifled everything. He was afraid the neighbours would hear, but I didn’t care. I was ready all the time, I would have stopped everything for a look or a touch. I never thought about cheating, never looked for intimacy outside of my marriage, but I was really unhappy because I was so unfulfilled and lonely. There’s only so much a girl can do for herself.

Now that my husband and I have parted for good, I’m looking for a partner who wants me, who wants sex, whose cock gets hard at the thought of how wet and ready I am all the time. Who tries to talk to me about other things, but fails because he just wants to rip my clothes off with his teeth.

But nobody knows this about me! No one has any idea how wet I am at any given moment, how easily I can orgasm, how willing I would be if someone were to ask. I look like the quintessential good girl: I’m active in my church, I do volunteer work, I don’t drink or go to bars. I’m just always ready for cock, I just don’t worry about it being a problem anymore.

I have a little secret that most people don’t know about me. When my ex boyfriend and I broke up I was feeling a little down and out. I took my credit card, which had a $25000 limit, and went on a spending spree. Yep you read that right $25000.

You see, I was in a relationship were I couldn’t go out and buy things. I had to justify every penny I spent. It really really got to me. He was allowed to go out and buy a $300 golf club but I had to ask him if I could spend $25 to get a new shirt.

When I was out on my own I went on a trip and spent every penny I could on my credit card. I bought items for my house, new cloths, paid for dinners and drinks for my friends, etc etc. I also went out and got a new car, bought a house and a few other big ticket items.

This part of my secret is not so bad. The bad part is that a few months later, I claimed Bankruptcy. Yep! I have not had to pay one penny of that $25000 and I still have my car, house and my big ticket items. I have gotten away without paying one penny. I was able to work the system so I even got rid of all my student loans. I have gotten away with not paying over $300,000. The bad part is that I work full time and I make $25/hour and could probably pay it all on my own. But I worked the system so I will never have to pay any of that off.

I always wanted to get this off my chest. So here it is. My secret is that my husband doesn’t know I’m an exhibitionist. We live in Vanderhoof. He is 16 years older than me, very conservative, old fashioned, and we are very active in our church. As a result, always dress modestly. But, when I’m away from home on business, I find many ways to show much more skin than he would approve of. I sometimes leave my hotel room curtains “accidentally” open a little and dry myself off in front of the window after shower, or I find ways to “accidentally” flash myself when wearing a skirt. I have even visited an out of town nude beach before when I went to Vancouver, I walked around topless there. He has no idea that I love the look on the guys when I flash at them. He would flip out if he knew how many people have seen me naked or at least part of me. He doesn’t even like me to wear a bikini in public, always a one-piece which is no fun. I am young and adventurous. I hope he never finds out. Someday I want to take my video nude and post it on the Internet.

Oh My GOD, I’ve sent dozens of messages to women from Plenty of Fish in Prince George and Quesnel, also went as far as California, every single one either “read deleted” or “unread deleted”. If I’m lucky I’ll get a “read” but never a reply. Some of the women blocked me for introducing myself! What is it with these women? Some of them have serious attitude problems. There is nothing wrong with guys, don’t let these idiots bring your self-esteem down. Plenty of Fish is a medium for shallow, vapid females to get their ego boosts at the expense of well-intentioned men who are genuinely looking for someone special. The “requirements” many of the brainless females on Plenty of Fish site, regardless whether they are in Canada or in the United States, have for their perfect man are often (if not always) unreasonable. Yet by the same token, most of these fat, destitute, single mother sluts expect men to accept them as they are with no complaints. Talk about hypocrisy! A man nowadays is better off budgeting to visit an escort on a semi-regular basis. Or looking for married women who are looking for no strings attached hookups. At least with a pro, you know what you are going to get and how much it will cost. Or if it is no strings attached, you don’t have to worry about her at all. It just bothers me that all of them in this plenty of fish are so undereducated, yet wants the prince charming! Come on! Be real!

My pastor in Los Angeles, California, is known for the BIG hugs he gives to men and women. No one thinks it’s inappropriate when he hugs. Lately, however, his hugs to one of our new female members somehow seem intimate and more personal in a way I never saw before. Last week they hugged so forcefully you could totally see the connection. My pastor is married. At bible study last night he almost taught the whole class looking in the direction of this lady. I don’t know how to ask him about this discreetly without disrespecting.