When I was 17 (I am 23 now) I stayed over at my friends house. We went to a movie with her Uncle Jeremy (who is married) who was 35. Jeremy sat next to me at the theater and a few minutes into the movie he whispered to me to go out and take off my panties. I have no idea why I did it. When I came back he had lifted the arm rest and he slid his hand under my ass and skirt and stuck 2 fingers right into my pussy. I had had sex once before and I was amazed how dirty and great this guys fingers felt. I moved around on his fingers through the whole movie.

When he brought us back to my friend’s apartment he did and said nothing except to get my cell number. At 2:00 am that night he texted me to meet him in the parking lot across from my friends building. As soon as I got out there he pushed me to my knees and had me suck his cock. Before he even finished he had me stand and bent me over the hood of his car. With his dick only wet from being in my mouth he shoved it in my ass and started pounding me. I had never had anal sex before and when I yelled out a little he told me I needed to shut up and get used to it because being a sex toy was all I was good for. He did stuff to me for almost 3 hours before he was done with me.

I have been with Jeremy for almost 6 years now in a boyfriend girlfriend relationship and he was right about me being a sex toy. He lets his friends and even family fuck me all the time. Sometimes even guys he works with or guys we meet at clubs use me. Jeremy is still married and he treats his wife like a queen. He has told me a couple times that some women are meant to be married and treasured but girls like me are just meant for men to use for whatever they want.

None of my friends or co-workers know. His niece that had been my friend hasn’t talked to me in 5 years once she found out what I was doing. I have no one to talk to and part of the problem is I love being used by these men.

I like to watch others having sex or being intimate in front of me. I also like to be watched. Whether it is on a webcam or in person it really is exiting. Taking part in group sex is very exhilarating for me. I am not a voyeur in the traditional sense of the word but I have had the pleasure of having sex amidst lots of other people who are having sex and I can tell you that the sights and sounds of sex are very exciting to me. I feed off other people’s passion, fueling my own passion, and I get caught up in the scene. This is the only reason I moved from a smaller northern town named Prince George to a much bigger town Vancouver. Lot of fantasies can come true here. I have met my current boyfriend on AshelyMadison and things are going great since.

The sight of a woman taking a thick hard cock is incredibly arousing to see. I imagine myself in her position and that gets me horny. That is why I think porno industry makes so much money. It gives you the opportunity to fantasize. Having sex, while watching others have sex, and allowing them to watch you back, is an almost spiritual, soulful event, as if you are in worship service, and you are celebrating life. I love the idea of voyeurism. I wish more people out there were openly voyeur and embrace the voyeurism lifestyle.

My confession is that when I was 17 I gave my 3rd real boyfriend the first blow job of my life when I was living in New Westminster. I had kissed guys down there and given hand job many times, but nothing more than that. Never had oral or never had actual sex. On this particular night, I decided to surprise him. I decided I was going to go for it and give him the first blowjob of my life along with my talented handjob. We were in the back of his truck, with plenty of room. We went through the routine of kissing, feeling my breasts over my shirt, squeezing my breasts under my shirt, then feeling me under my pants, feeling him into his pants. After getting hot doing those things I unbuttoned his pants, took out his penis, sat cross-legged on the seat and went down on him. He let me give him the blowjob for a few minutes and then said he wanted to have sex, but I told him I wanted to give him blow job and can use my talented hand. I also told him this was the first time I have taken a penis in my mouth. He seemed disappointed for a second but that changed soon as I felt how excited he got within few seconds when I took him in my mouth again. God, I must have been terrible blowjob giver, it went on forever. I kept stop giving him blow job and then give him hard hand job then again blowjob it continued for a while. My jaw was hurting so bad, but I didn’t want to give up. Eventually, I did get him to cum, the first spurt was in mouth, which I swallowed, after which I pulled him out of my mouth and he came on my hand and his leg. I was so proud of myself and he was so happy! That was my first ever giving someone blowjob but certainly not the last.

I have come to enjoy giving blow jobs and my hand jobs are more talented (my husband says I give the hottest hand jobs), the pleasure it provides, and I love the feeling of my husband’s throbbing penis as he is cumming in my mouth or on me. I have learned how to swallow it and enjoy it.

When I was an escort I did mostly a combination of massage and BDSM. I am mostly glad to be out, but I miss the feeling of being pretty and maintaining enough prowess to get men to pay for me. Especially the ones those paid me to beat and berate them. I worked as an escort in Prince George and then moved to North Vancouver. I would travel to Nanaimo or Victoria too, as high class hired escort depending on the price and if the client was paying for my trip. Money was very good but since I specialized in fetish I met some interesting and powerful people of the society. My very first call to escort was for a scary looking guy who showed me newspaper articles online about how he’d gotten in troubles with law, and then smoked some pot, and then couldn’t get off. Even after half an hour of me screwing him up his ass with his toys, he couldn’t get it hard. He was also smelly. When I went down to give him a blowjob, I almost gagged. So I ended up giving him handjob. That was one of my worst appointments throughout my escort career. Can’t believe I kept going. Now I look back and laugh. I don’t regret anything.

I lied to my boyfriend without realizing it. It was nothing major, but it’s killing me. He asked who I was with so I told him my best friend. I didn’t mention that we were also with her boyfriend. The next day my boyfriend found out from some pictures online and was really upset. I’m scared he’ll never trust me again.