I have been married for less than a year, and have cheated on my wife with a coworker of mine, yet I have talked about not cheating with countless women. I troll the internet dating sites like Ashley Madison, looking for women who are willing to cheat with a married man. It turns me on to hear them say they want me, and I get off fantasizing ways to meet them and have an affair. My wife has caught me a number of times having inappropriate conversations but I promised her I would stop every time. But I really don’t want to. I am seeing a counselor but don’t think its helping.
I wish I could get my wife to open up and let me fuck another woman. If she were only less frigid, she could be with us and it would be a threesome. At the same time the idea of having sex with another woman behind her back, without her knowing I cheated is a much better fantasy for me and turns me on even more. Maybe I will just throw all caution to the wind and do what I want to do. I do not think I can stand the temptation much longer, and I know the counseling is not helping. If I do this, I will make sure my wife never knows I cheated.