My secret is that I cheated on my husband with my best friend. It wasn’t planned, it just happened and now I am so lost. My husband cheated on me with someone he met on Facebook about 10 years ago. I wanted to leave but I was pregnant so I stuck it out. Eight years later I am standing here guilty of the very same thing I have hated him for all these years. I love my husband but since I cheated on him I feel like I don’t love him anymore. I am in love with the thought of marriage but nothing else. I feel more strongly towards my friend for the past few months. I can’t bring myself to leave my husband because of our children and the small town factor of Quesnel, British Columbia. I am don’t know what to do!

Last month I travel to Williams Lake, a town 3 hours away from Prince George, to see a man. Most people would say that there is nothing wrong with that. Well there is something wrong with it. There is a lot wrong with it. I left my two children at home alone for the night and no one knew where I was. I just wanted to have sex so bad that it didn’t matter that I was leaving the kids alone. I just wanted to be with someone. I wanted to feel someone next to my body. What makes this ever worse is that the man I went to see is married. Yep, I travelled 3 hours to have sex with a married man. His wife had no clue. He told her he was working that night but took the night off work and met me in a hotel. The night we spent together was so hot. I have never done anything like that before. Knowing that we were both being “bad” made it just that much more exciting. He was able to please me in ways I never knew before. I didn’t know what to expect but I got way more then I have ever had before. He continued to tell me I was so much better than his wife and he would not be able to go back to her after the night we had. When I close my eyes and think about it I become so turned on and want him again so badly. After our night of passion I have never spoken to him again. He has tried to phone me but I don’t answer. It was a perfect night but he has a wife and I am not willing to wreak that for him. Our one night will be all we will ever have.