I’m a 22 year old male.
I have a very intense and dirty sexual fantasy.
I always wanted to get pretty violent with an escort chick (with her consent of course).

My biggest fantasy is a rape fantasy with a thick blonde, a tall and athletic woman with some thick legs…who has some considerable strength to fight back.
I just want it to be very realistic, and the idea of struggling against her really turns me on.

I want her to resist, I’m okay with not hitting her but I want her to get very violent…punching, slapping, scratching, kicking…
I know that some women can really hurt me, and it turns me on so much…
However I don’t want to go too far if things get ugly, because I don’t want to get injured.

If I win the struggle and nautralize her, or if I loose the struggle (honestly I really want it to happen), then we would proceed to sex…

I don’t really remember what happened and I never try to remember either. But I think it’s time to reflect on it because deep down I am still scared. My secret is that I was gang raped. When I was living in Prince George, I went to the old Cadillac bar with some friends. My friends were dancing and I was just sitting after first few rounds of dances. I ordered a drink. Someone somehow put a date rape drug in the drink. All I remember is that waking up at an abandon house up at the hart area all bruised and naked. I almost died. I called 911 from my cell phone and you can guess the rest. I wish this would have never happened but it did. They never found the guy or guys who did this to me. I do not go out anymore and always look over my shoulder. I still jump every time there is a knock on my door or every time a stranger says hello.