I am married, kids, the whole bit. Quite happy but have a gay side that is frustrated by being good. What I mean by that is that like many guys, I am happy where I am, but to be truthful, I also want to have gay sex but cannot because I am married. A lot of guys are in this situation…and we all know it. About a year back I was traveling to a different city, and searched Craigslist to see if anyone wanted to get naked, watch some pron and jerk off. That was all I was willing to do. I searched Craigslist because I had been fantasizing about getting naked and jerking off with a guy as a way of satisfying my gay side but still being faithful so to speak (no sex so no worries right!). Just to explain the fantasizing…although i found my spouse sexy and liked to make luv 2 her….i also wanted to take a cock up the ass and to suck it and be gay…..cannot say why….but really…really…thought about it…….so….happy but tension….back to the trip away….I responded to a posting where a guy was looking for another to party and play. I actually did not know what that meant. I know now that party means to do some drugs to get high and then the play (meaning sex) follows. In fact I emailed a guy who had another posting to find out what party and play meant. I emailed the guy with the party and play posting and we exchanged pics. He was not bad looking. I made it clear that I was only wanting to get naked, watch some porn and jerk of and he seemed fine with that. I was already drunk and a bit high from 420 when I did this….I could not make such plans when sober……I went over to his place, and he wanted me to try a hard drug. I don’t feel like saying what it was but I tried it and was not impressed at first, but I can say now that I did not appreciate at all how it was affecting me. I had drank before I went there and did some 420, and I think being drunk impaired my ability to feel how the drug was affecting me….back to the story….We were in a computer room, watching some gay porn and doing the drug. We were touching a bit, but nothing to worry about. I was feeling relaxed and enjoying the porn which was making me aroused. After probably half an hour of this he said why don’t we go to the bedroom. I was high enough that I said sure. We did and he moved his computer there so that we could continue to watch gay porn. He also had a TV in his room with a DVR and put a gay porn disk in. There I was, kneeling naked on his bed, watching two screens of guys fucking each other, I mean hot gay anal porn, doing a hard drug for the first time. I was kinda expecting the drug to really get me wasted but I was still thinking (or so I thought).

I was kneeling on the bed…doing the drug…massaging my cock…with great lube he had…..watching two screens with guys taking it up the ass…and the drug was really making me high…so….watching the two screens of porn really became sexy and more real and more arousing and i was playing with myself really aroused….and i took some lube and was also lubing my ass…my spinctor…and my cheeks…my whole ass….and there i was…really high….and sexy and hot and naked on my knees watching gay porn and playing with my cock with one hand and my ass with the other….and behind me…laying with his shoulders against the headboard of the bed…was the guy getting me high…the guy i made it clear 2 i was unwilling to have sex with that all i was willing to do was to get naked, watch some porn, and jerk ourselves off…total safety…my clear limit and lines….anyway that guy…the guy getting me high on a new drug….was also taking the drug and getting high and he was also watching the really good and sexy gay porn…and feeling hot and sexy…and there i was in front of him…ass to him facing the porn screens….playing with my cok with one hand and my ass with the other…moving my hips in sexual arousal…..and he found…my ass and its motions really arousing and hot…and he found me playing with myself and being high….and vulnerable….and vulnerable…and vulnerable…arousing…and…we had run out of drug and he called his friend to bring some over…..mmmmm

….so his friend comes over…i pay for some more…and he gives it….and he gets naked and he and my host suck each other in the 69 position…and the guest is quite good looking…and that is really hot and turns me on more….both the sexiness of the friend and him and my friend sucking each other off….the friend gets dressed….my host and i are still naked…..and i am given a pill and told it is a herbal viagra….i take it and swallow it ….and i swear it was only after that that…after i swallowed it…..that it occurred to me that that was a really really really stupid thing to do. The problem was is that I was already drunk and high (but not realizing how high because I was drunk) and i just did it….the friend leaves and my host and i continue to watch porn while we do some more of the drug….getting higher and higher…

….i am so aroused getting high and watching the porn of guys taking it up the ass….i keep looking at my host who was not bad looking when i arrived and is looking better and better and better…..as i get higher and higher…also from the pill i took which was not a herbal viagra…don’t know what it was……and i tell him i would suck his cock if he had a condom….he tells me he has no condums….wow i find that hard to believe but i had 3 and so i put one over his balls (bit the head off the condum and worked it down his cok 2 do that) and one on his cok…and i start sukin it….it is really wide but no long so i think he is not erect…i think now he was but i was just not realizing his cok was thick but short….anyway…i am suking it and he wants to suk mine…like 69…so i put the last condum on and we are kinda 69 but i am on my knees kneeling down to suk his cock…really found it hot and…with his cock in my mouth…i am looking at his balls…and the curve of his ass…and really…really…getting aroused because i was so high and did not realize it….

….so I said i would like to take his cock up my…ass…put some lube on and sat on his cock…and that was sooo…hot …because i was sooo….high…..and he fucked me in several positions…..doggy style…on my back….on my side…wish his cok had been longer but hot all the same….

….then…he took the condom…off…when it was clear i would not fuck him without a condom he sent me back to my hotel…..i felt psychically like shit for a couple of days…not sure what drugs i was detoxing from…..and then left it for awhile….now and again when drunk fantasizing….other times horrified. And her I am posting it because it is both hot and horrible. What bugged me after is that there was no way i would suck and be fucked if i was not high and i simply did not see it coming but at the same time agreed to get high so….guilty and not guilty. But that was really unfair to give me a pill and lie to me about it once I was already completely high. I loved being seduced by him. I hope to be seduced more like this.

I have this fantasy of having three sluts at the same time, one to suck my cock, one to lick my balls and the other to shove a dildo up my ass. Then I want to fuck each and every one of them. I want to stick my cock in their asses, mouths, pussies and use the dildo on them at the same time. This fantasy overcomes me and I think about it all the time. I know there are sites like ashleymadision that could help me locate some really trashy Kamloops sluts.

I don’t know if I will ever get the nerve but every time I jerk off in the shower or fuck my wife, I think about making that call, or hitting one of those websites. I also want to watch some Kamloops sluts go down on each other and use strap ons. I just want a dirty encounter that has no boundaries. I would even let another guy be there and fuck me in the ass if I could just have this one fantasy. I know one day I will make it happen but for now it remains nothing more than a fantasy.

I keep trying to get the nerve up to ask my wife if she would be interested in joining a sexual party, but I am afraid she would leave me if she knew how twisted I really am. If she knew I crave a cock in my ass, or even a dildo she would think I was gay. The truth is I am just a sex addict and I want to have my way with more than one person at once, male and female.

You hear people talk about how guys always fantasize about seeing two girls together, but I have had the same fantasy for a long time. When my boyfriend is fucking me I often visualize him sucking a cock or getting fucked in his ass while I watch. My fantasy is watching my boyfriend with another man. Thinking about this makes me cum so fast that I have to slow my mind so I don’t explode before he does. It started out me dreaming of him getting his cock sucked by a school girl in uniform while I watched, then I imagined him fucking her from behind while I ate her pussy. Now the fantasies of him sucking a cock have taken on a whole new form.

The thought of watching him get fucked hard in his ass makes me want to cum right now. I want to see him scream in pain as he has a huge cock shoved hard in his ass. I want to watch as he swallows a huge cock down his throat and then gulps the whole load, swallowing every last drop. I think of having my boyfriend fuck me while another guy fucks me in the ass too, that is another fantasy that makes me so horny I can’t think. But the one that really turns me on and makes me crazy is visualizing my boyfriend pulling another man’s pants down, slowly sucking on that guys cock and then bending over so the man can slip his hard cock right into my boyfriend ass.

Maybe I am abnormal but if I ever could get my boyfriend to do that, I would. I often dream of setting him up to be raped in the ass so I can watch. I am so turned on by this thought that it consumes me and makes me want to fuck all the time. My pussy is wet just thinking about it now.