I have NEVER been unfaithful to you in anyway…EVER!

BODY, MIND, and SOUL. I made a promise to you..to make your soul one with mine on the inside of our rings. I confess, I feel you needed a way out. But I’d never say that to your face in fear of hurting your feelings. Just like how you can’t actually say to my face that I’m not good enough. I left love to love you.

We built so much on sand..and you made promises to me you couldn’t keep. I confess not being with you has made me realize that there is a sadness so bad, you you try to kill it. Part of me is there..I know it is. But I hear “god”?…whatever that is out there..It’s getting louder and louder and makes me remember I can survive this horrible ravage on my heart…and yours.

babyboy
Bambam

I live in London, Ontario. I have held this secret for years. I am too afraid to reveal this to my family and friends I know I will be looked down upon if I told them or worse yet they may disown me. I come from a very conservative Christian family. If I come out of the closet I will bring shame on them. The only ones that understand how I feel are the ones who are out of the closet already. Sometimes I wonder why I am like this. Why can’t I just be normal or just not be so afraid about anything? I have been living a lie and its killing me! Only my boyfriend knows that I am gay.