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Married Guy Seduced by a Gay Guy Using Drugs

Tuesday, December 31st, 2013

I am married, kids, the whole bit. Quite happy but have a gay side that is frustrated by being good. What I mean by that is that like many guys, I am happy where I am, but to be truthful, I also want to have gay sex but cannot because I am married. A lot of guys are in this situation…and we all know it. About a year back I was traveling to a different city, and searched Craigslist to see if anyone wanted to get naked, watch some pron and jerk off. That was all I was willing to do. I searched Craigslist because I had been fantasizing about getting naked and jerking off with a guy as a way of satisfying my gay side but still being faithful so to speak (no sex so no worries right!). Just to explain the fantasizing…although i found my spouse sexy and liked to make luv 2 her….i also wanted to take a cock up the ass and to suck it and be gay…..cannot say why….but really…really…thought about it…….so….happy but tension….back to the trip away….I responded to a posting where a guy was looking for another to party and play. I actually did not know what that meant. I know now that party means to do some drugs to get high and then the play (meaning sex) follows. In fact I emailed a guy who had another posting to find out what party and play meant. I emailed the guy with the party and play posting and we exchanged pics. He was not bad looking. I made it clear that I was only wanting to get naked, watch some porn and jerk of and he seemed fine with that. I was already drunk and a bit high from 420 when I did this….I could not make such plans when sober……I went over to his place, and he wanted me to try a hard drug. I don’t feel like saying what it was but I tried it and was not impressed at first, but I can say now that I did not appreciate at all how it was affecting me. I had drank before I went there and did some 420, and I think being drunk impaired my ability to feel how the drug was affecting me….back to the story….We were in a computer room, watching some gay porn and doing the drug. We were touching a bit, but nothing to worry about. I was feeling relaxed and enjoying the porn which was making me aroused. After probably half an hour of this he said why don’t we go to the bedroom. I was high enough that I said sure. We did and he moved his computer there so that we could continue to watch gay porn. He also had a TV in his room with a DVR and put a gay porn disk in. There I was, kneeling naked on his bed, watching two screens of guys fucking each other, I mean hot gay anal porn, doing a hard drug for the first time. I was kinda expecting the drug to really get me wasted but I was still thinking (or so I thought).

I was kneeling on the bed…doing the drug…massaging my cock…with great lube he had…..watching two screens with guys taking it up the ass…and the drug was really making me high…so….watching the two screens of porn really became sexy and more real and more arousing and i was playing with myself really aroused….and i took some lube and was also lubing my ass…my spinctor…and my cheeks…my whole ass….and there i was…really high….and sexy and hot and naked on my knees watching gay porn and playing with my cock with one hand and my ass with the other….and behind me…laying with his shoulders against the headboard of the bed…was the guy getting me high…the guy i made it clear 2 i was unwilling to have sex with that all i was willing to do was to get naked, watch some porn, and jerk ourselves off…total safety…my clear limit and lines….anyway that guy…the guy getting me high on a new drug….was also taking the drug and getting high and he was also watching the really good and sexy gay porn…and feeling hot and sexy…and there i was in front of him…ass to him facing the porn screens….playing with my cok with one hand and my ass with the other…moving my hips in sexual arousal…..and he found…my ass and its motions really arousing and hot…and he found me playing with myself and being high….and vulnerable….and vulnerable…and vulnerable…arousing…and…we had run out of drug and he called his friend to bring some over…..mmmmm

….so his friend comes over…i pay for some more…and he gives it….and he gets naked and he and my host suck each other in the 69 position…and the guest is quite good looking…and that is really hot and turns me on more….both the sexiness of the friend and him and my friend sucking each other off….the friend gets dressed….my host and i are still naked…..and i am given a pill and told it is a herbal viagra….i take it and swallow it ….and i swear it was only after that that…after i swallowed it…..that it occurred to me that that was a really really really stupid thing to do. The problem was is that I was already drunk and high (but not realizing how high because I was drunk) and i just did it….the friend leaves and my host and i continue to watch porn while we do some more of the drug….getting higher and higher…

….i am so aroused getting high and watching the porn of guys taking it up the ass….i keep looking at my host who was not bad looking when i arrived and is looking better and better and better…..as i get higher and higher…also from the pill i took which was not a herbal viagra…don’t know what it was……and i tell him i would suck his cock if he had a condom….he tells me he has no condums….wow i find that hard to believe but i had 3 and so i put one over his balls (bit the head off the condum and worked it down his cok 2 do that) and one on his cok…and i start sukin it….it is really wide but no long so i think he is not erect…i think now he was but i was just not realizing his cok was thick but short….anyway…i am suking it and he wants to suk mine…like 69…so i put the last condum on and we are kinda 69 but i am on my knees kneeling down to suk his cock…really found it hot and…with his cock in my mouth…i am looking at his balls…and the curve of his ass…and really…really…getting aroused because i was so high and did not realize it….

….so I said i would like to take his cock up my…ass…put some lube on and sat on his cock…and that was sooo…hot …because i was sooo….high…..and he fucked me in several positions…..doggy style…on my back….on my side…wish his cok had been longer but hot all the same….

….then…he took the condom…off…when it was clear i would not fuck him without a condom he sent me back to my hotel…..i felt psychically like shit for a couple of days…not sure what drugs i was detoxing from…..and then left it for awhile….now and again when drunk fantasizing….other times horrified. And her I am posting it because it is both hot and horrible. What bugged me after is that there was no way i would suck and be fucked if i was not high and i simply did not see it coming but at the same time agreed to get high so….guilty and not guilty. But that was really unfair to give me a pill and lie to me about it once I was already completely high. I loved being seduced by him. I hope to be seduced more like this.

I married a Gay Man!

Sunday, September 4th, 2011

The “prince” I married started bullying me fairly quick. But I was pregnant and wanted to “save” our marriage. I was his 2nd wife. He yelled and belittled me on a regular basis. He ignored me and our child.

After one final incident I kicked him out, and quickly discovered that he had been having multiple affairs since one week into our dating (4 years ago). Many were women, but one was a 7 year (or more?) affair with his best guy friend. I’m friends with his lover’s wife and haven’t told her because I fear what my ex would do to me.

It’s been 3 months since I kicked him out, and he’s gotten his mistress pregnant. I wonder if she knows he likes men?

Not sure want to be married anymore, want to be an escort

Thursday, June 30th, 2011

I am an older woman…but still holding the sharp looks and body for my age. I am married, have been for the last 5 years. But not really happy in the marriage. It is a complicated mess. We went through a rough patch a while. The intimacy stopped, so I thought he was cheating. Saw him on tons of escort and sex sites, and what not…with our intimacy issues for sure thought he was cheating, so I crossed my own line with a woman. Did not do her all the way, but close enough. I felt so dead, unwanted in my marriage, not touched the way I craved, my husband is an exceptional lover, but do not think he is enough for me. We have done the threesomes, as I am a Bi female as well….but it was fun at first, then it was not fun anymore, he would do things to her that he does not do with me, it became uncomfortable, and then such a need in the relationship.

So I told him I did not want to do it any more, the threesomes, even though I loved them, the rush of it all, but he was not really being equal in them, she would get all the attention, and I barely got touched…so we quit, and it was like he was punishing me for that….said I broke the deal…there was no deal made here, he loved the fact that I was Bi, said he always wanted a GF/ Wife like that, but there was no deal made here, so he was angry and disappointed, he gives them all the attention, and not me, kind of bored doing me for the last 5 years, and now something new what was happening, so it made me uncomfortable…and that is when everything changed, our sex like dropped, big time, we barely had sex….he blamed it on stress, not in the mood, the list goes on……

I confessed to him what I had did, crossed the line with a woman, he was (and still is) angry with me, said I hurt his man pride and esteem doing that….I actually went there to meet her not to sleep with her, but for us, thought maybe it would pull us back together, but it has not, and well things happened….I was torn about it, never cheated on any partner before, or done anything like that….but in his anger, he did not care to hear what it has done to me, it tore me bad he was hurt over as well….never wanted to hurt him!!

Our relationship is a hard one, he is very, very emotionally disconnected, old school, where the woman stands behind, and he supports her, well I do not like standing behind, wanted to be right beside him, yes he does work hard and make a lot of sacrifices indeed, but I always have to go to him for money, being my current job is lousy, only a few days to a full pay period, but he gets so angry with me, and it is tearing us apart…….

I am not sure I want the marriage any more, half of me does, the other half does not. I want my own money and bank account and not have to rely on him all the time, I am not getting enough out of him sexually, we do the same stuff over and over, want more, but he cannot give it, I am sexually restless, and not sure why, never been like this before, He has done all these wild and crazy sexual things with ex-girlfriends and escorts that he has been with…but will not do them with me, we do the same positions over and over, I want more sex, wilder, want to feel alive again, I just feel like an empty shell here, There are too many issues with the marriage to list. I am thinking about leaving and just being on my own, I have thought about becoming an escort, to have extra money, and have what I want sexually, feel very selfish saying all these things, but it is tearing me inside to continue the way I am…very confused right now. I have my own bills to pay off, and they are not getting done. My husband carries the heavy front of the house hold bills, so things are tight after he does that, so he does not have a lot extra money to give to me if I need something, so I want to make my own money, not sure what I am going to do….my head is full of confusion!!

I am in love with my cousin

Saturday, May 28th, 2011

I am an 18 year old girl living in Calgary and my secret is that I am in love with my cousin. I first fell in love with him 2 years ago when we spent all our Christmas holidays together at my Grand Parents house in Edmonton. It was so obvious that we were both into each other but none of us was willing to make the first move until about 8 months ago when he came to stay at my apartment to look for a place for himself in Calgary. He lives in Red Deer. While he was living with me I felt so comfortable with him that I would walk in my bra and panties around him. He seems to respond too. He got comfortable and started to expose more of him around me. One day while were having some drinks together, we both started to chat and then one thing lead to another, we both expressed our feelings for each other. We then spent our first of many nights together as a couple and of course enjoying each other’s company in intimate way. We have decided not to tell family about this as we were not sure how they would react to it. Now my cousin and I are planning to move to Toronto to live together as a couple away from family and their judgments. We are in love and that’s all that matters at this point.

Afraid I will fall in love with the guy who is cheating on his girlfriend with me

Friday, May 20th, 2011

My secret is that I am sleeping with a man who has a serious girlfriend of 2 years. I feel no remorse, guilt, or shame. I met him on an affair site called Ashley Madison in Richmond. He is from Burnaby. He is giving the best sex of my life. I don’t know why he is cheating on his girlfriend, but I am glad he is. I use him just for sex because I know he is in a relationship. Last night, however, he told me he would make love to me and not just have sex. All I could say is wow. For 11 years seems like all I have been doing is screwing around with boys. This guy showed me how to be loved and how to love back. I am sore everywhere today but has that satisfying grin that I never had before on my face. Now I am afraid if I let it continue for few more weeks, I will fall in love with him.