My secret is that I cheated on my husband. What started out as fun and flirty emails from a co-worker turned into us meeting up after work on a regular basis. We have been together on 6 different occasions and had sex which was great. I love my husband, but, I miss sleeping with whoever I want to or random sex. Before I got married, it was no big deal for me to just have sex with any random guys I wanted. Since the marriage I miss that part of me. But, the experience with the co-worker was the second person. While my husband was overseas, I hooked up with an ex lover. It feels good to get this off my chest. Honestly, call me a slut or whore, but I don’t regret any of it. I don’t feel guilty. I don’t have any remorse. I love the idea of secret rendezvous and the fantasy of cheating. My husband still does not know that I cheated on him with two different guys. My co-worker is also his friend!

A few years ago I answered an advertisment in a newspaper to get some photos done because I wanted to become a model. I was 19 at the time and had done some promotional work in the past but no modelling although people would always tell me I was pretty enough to be a model, especially men. The man who answered the call sounded very professional and told me to come to an address to meet him so we could take the photos. I asked if it was ok if I brought my boyfriend of two years along with me but he said he would just be in the way and convinced me otherwise. I thought I would be going to a studio or something but it turned out the address was a serviced appartment.

Once inside Bill (this wasnt his real name) asked me to pose in various outfits as he took lots of photos. After 20 minutes or so I asked him how much all the photos would cost as he seemed to be taking hundreds. He told me not to worry and we would arrange something. Over the next hour or so I posed in various outfits I had but as time went on I seemed to be wearing less and less until Bill had me in my bikini and then various sets of underwear. I was feeling a little uncomfortable at this point, partly because I was showing my body off to a complete stranger, and party because I was pretty sure Bill was becomming aroused. He had a big grin on his face and kept adjusting himself. Bill was probably in his mid 50s and was wearing a wedding ring so I assume he was married.

SO there I was posing in some underwear when Bill asked me to take my top off. I refused but he told me it was very important that I do it if I wanted to be a model so eventually I agreed. As I unclipped my bra, I could see Bill was becomming very aroused and as he took photos of me topless he started to play with his penis. I decided I had enough and started to pick up my clothes to leave. Bill told me I owed him $450 for the photos but I told him I didnt have that much money even with all my savings so he told me I could settle the bill by letting him jerk himself off into my mouth. I didnt know what to do so I agreed. Bill came up to me and put me on my knees and told me to open my mouth. I did what I was told and just a few seconds later I felt Bill’s sperm shoot across my cheek and I could taste it in my mouth. It tasted horrible, warm and salty.

As I got up to leave Bill told me he would send me all the photos but when nothing arrived for a few weeks I realised I had been tricked. Im not sure what Bill did with the photos but hopefully theyre not on the internet and he didnt tell anyone that I had let him jerk off in my mouth. I never told my boyfriend what happened because I knew how upset and angry he would be.

I decided not to be a model after that.

My girlfriend and I had many sexual fantasies and seemed to do everything we talked about. One thing she wanted me to do was give a guy a headjob (She had been with a girlfriend while I was joined in many times). I thought, oh whatever, why not try? There was one guy at work in the plant that everyone said was gay. I just went up and asked him one day and he said yes. Then jokingly told him that I would have to blow him. He just smiled and said anytime. Told my girlfriend and she almost orgasmed on the spot and said oh yeah and please get pictures. Few days later on night shift I called him on his offer. He smiled and we went into the back end of the plant where no one was and he pulled down his pants. I took him in my mouth and then gave him head until he came in my mouth all the while taking pictures with my camera. It was real nice and I found it a turn on. My girlfriend loved the pictures I emailed her of my adventure and come on my face. I haven’t been with a guy since, but if the right circumstances come up, who knows?

I am a registered nurse at the University Hospital of Northern British Columbia. At my work I see people live, get better and other die or have already passed in horrible ways. I see people smile, cry, and depressed for many reasons. Sometimes they make news, you read about them on the Prince George Citizen, or watch them on CKPG news. These are always in the news and I find myself sometimes visiting these sites to see what others are doing. I know that these people were loved or are loved. I sometimes think that they had so much more to live for than I do and wish I could trade their places. I wish I was not so lonely. I wish I could do more with my life.

I work for a well known forest product company; living in Quesnel and my secrets is that my boss cheats the company religiously. He would “borrow” 50 or 20 bucks from petty cash, lie about his expense account, manipulating time cards for some of his friends who also work in the mill, etc. He regularly lies on all kinds of operational reports to make his division look better than it actually is. I have been working there for year and half now and am very uncomfortable working for him or even in that department, but I need my job. I used to love my job when I first started, but after seeing all the unethical behavior of my boss, I am disgusted with my work. I am only 22 and I am afraid to tell his boss because my boss is friends with his boss too. If I blew the whistle on him he will know that I am the one who did it. I wish he would get caught and get fired. I am thinking of helping the auditors next year and just tell them what to look for unintentionally, I am searching the web for clues and ideas.