I advocate feminism and work for a law firm that devotes in this cause. I have a secret. As a feminist I have always been terrified to admit even to people I’m intimate with that I enjoy rape fantasies. There is something about it that excites me like nothing else. The idea of loosing control and being used as a “sex toy” for someone’s pleasure at his will is something intoxicating.

This fantasy of being raped is not new. Even as a kid and teenager a lot of my sexual awakenings were disturbing in that I was more of a victim than a willing and curious girl. I was raped and forced to perform sexual acts. It’s not that I ever want to actually be raped and I’m not even really interested in roleplaying it but I do love to fantasize about it.

In those fantasies I’m vulnerable and fearful for my life. I’m always locked in a cage or a windowless room and forced into doing anything my captor wants, until I’m sobbing from exhaustion. Until my captor is satisfied with me and until my captor is done using me!

I love my boyfriend, I love fucking him and I am always wet as soon as I see him. He is 29 and I am 18 years old. I share my sexual experiences with him with my girlfriends! What not to share? It’s just so hot.

But this one thing he does, I don’t think I can share with my girlfriends! And tell them how much it turns me on.

When I’m lying on my back, he is on top of me and he’s holding my legs up in the air … my toes are curled … and he is pushing the end of his hard throbbing cock inside me, he’ll look down, and slowly let a long, wet spit fall out of his mouth and land exactly on my clit. When I feel that cold wet spit dribbling down around my pussy, and sometimes all the way down to my anus, it fills me with ecstasy … makes me even more wet. It’s such a turn on.

We have been married for over 11 years. To spice things up in the bedroom, my husband and I briefly had an open relationship last summer. We live in Prince George and we had to be very discrete as its a small town.

We ended it after exploring for about 6 months. I met someone (who was also in an open relationship and was married just like us) I had a real connection with. I still have one fantasy I wish we could have fulfilled … a threesome with my lover (the guy from the other relationship) and my husband, and them both penetrating me at once … Double Penetration or even Double Vagina.

I had been exploring and getting more comfortable with anal with my husband. He loved it, and although I didn’t at first, I was warming up to the idea. But the thought of having them both inside me at once is exhilarating. It seems so exciting that even the thought of it makes me wet. The thought of them both feeling each other through the thin walls of my vagina … the thought of all three of us orgasming together … it would happen unintentionally, after a night of hanging out and drinking, and then everyone gives in to their desires and we begin to kiss, and touch, and grope, and then there is exhilarating sex. Except while I am with my lover vaginally, my husband joins in anally, and everyone is deeply satisfied … I wish I could pursue this threesome fantasy!

In the fall of 2009, I just turned 16. I was young and rebellious and left my parent’s house. But quickly I realized I had nowhere to stay. I then contacted a family friend who was 39 years old at the time. We chatted on the phone and he invited me to stay in his trailer. I thought nothing of it as he was a family friend and his trailer was in the backyard. I had been told there’d be a room I could stay in and my own bed, etc. Well, I was naïve. I asked him to pick me up. He did. We arrived out at his farm. I was lead to the trailer and noticed he was following me in. There was only one bedroom in the camper trailer I was to stay in. But then he said, he wants to stay with me as well … to take care of me.

It was late, in the middle of nowhere, I didn’t drive, and I didn’t have a any other friends to call.

So I put on a hoodie and sweat pants, as baggy as I could find so I didn’t come across as suggestive, and I fell asleep watching a movie.

I woke up with him inside of me and on top of me. I froze, I couldn’t move. I just pretended to be asleep until he was done. He pounded me as hard as he could and his breathing got heavier just before he came. I pretended to wake up right after. He just smiled and asked how my sleep was. I couldn’t answer. In the morning I convinced him to drive me into town for an appointment and didn’t let on, and I found somewhere else to stay and never went back or had any contact with him again.

For some odd reasons the thought of it turns me on now.

It was New Year’s Eve and everyone was drinking heavily. My wife and her two sisters were partying and were extremely drunk. Just after midnight, my wife was too tired to party any longer so she went to bed. One of her sisters was just as tired and went to sleep on the couch. My wife’s other sister and I stayed up and had a few more drinks and were having a good time and it didn’t take long before things started to happen. My sister in law was at the kitchen sink looking out the window, I had previously turned out all but one light that was in the living room so the kitchen was dimly lit. I walk up behind her and start massaging her neck and she began moaning so I figure she really likes my hands on her. I massaged her neck and back for about 10 minutes and decided to wrap my arms around her and kiss her neck. To my surprise she was really enjoying it.

I decided to try my luck and moved my hands up to her tits which are 40DD and they felt every bit of it. She reached around to the back of my head to pull me in closer which meant she really liked me playing with her tits. I began to get hard and I know she could feel my 8 inch cock poking her in the ass. She starts moving her hands down to my hard cock and feels my engorged cock from outside of my shorts. After a few minutes of rubbing she reaches into my shorts only to feel my cock for the first time and she knows I like it from the moaning noise I was making. She was stroking me slowly and sensually. I couldn’t believe I was being stroked by my sister in law. I slid my hand inside her panties only to feel a full bush of hair and then my finger slid between her lips an I felt how wet she was. Her pussy was soaking wet and her juices were running down my fingers. I decide to pick her up and sit her on the kitchen counter. I pulled her panties off and started licking her pussy through her thick bushy hair. I drank all of her juices as they dropped out of her. My tongue worked her clit as it didn’t take long to bring her to orgasm. I continued to lick her until she couldn’t handle it any longer. She asks me to take my shorts off and to sit up on the counter. My cock was so hard and ready to blow cum but I wanted to see what she could do with my cock. She stroked me for a few minutes and then put my cock in her mouth. She began sucking on my and I was in heaven. She played with my balls as she sucked and stroked me. I couldn’t last any longer and I told her I was going to cum but to my amazement she didn’t stop. I could feel my cum building up and I felt my body tense up and I began to shoot cum in her mouth.

I could hear her swallow everything I was shooting inside her mouth. She didn’t stop until she knew I was finished and my hard cock began to become softer. She saved a small portion of my cum and decided to share a passionate kiss with me and I got a taste of my own cum. She liked that I didn’t shy away from sharing it with her. After about 10 minutes we were both pretty tired and decided to turn in. It was the best experience to this day.