My Secret is that when I used to babysit, kids would trick me into giving them handjobs and blowjobs. I would go and join the kids in the shower to wash them up. It was innocent enough, kept my clothes dry, and I got clean myself. It was just me, a sweet little 13 year old blonde babysitter in the shower washing 11 years old boys … Until the word got to those horny 13 and older boys 😉 They would come over to the house I was babysitting. They would “trick” me into giving them handjobs, I would teach them how to make out, and in return they would let me practice giving blowjobs on them. I remember one boy used to bring his friend over and they used to take turns on me 😉 I don’t regret it and I wish I could still have that kind of forbidden fun.

I’m a fairly respected person in my job, and I do my best to hide my sexual tendencies. I try hard to be a better person and make better choices, but I slip sometimes. I’m bisexual and if I haven’t had sex in a while, I will literally fuck anything that comes my way.

My girlfriend was out of town and I went out with the guys. I sobered up a while and drove home early in the morning. Stopping at a stop sign, a middleaged native woman on the sidewalk waved at me. I thought nothing of it and waved back. She walked quickly to my car window and asked what I was looking for. I told her I was just on my way home and she looked embarassed and walked away. I continued my drive but immediately my cock twitched and started to get hard thinking about what she had offered.

I turned around and waved her over. I had never been with a prostitute and my slight buzz assisted my awfulness here. She offered me a blowjob for $40, I agreed and she got in. She asked to have half of it right away and we made a stop at a house not too far away. She went inside and left her purse in the car. I felt terrible and knew I should drive away immediately. During my contemplation, she returned and we drove away. She unrolled the car window and lit up a crack pipe, complaining that her dealer sold terrible stuff but crack helped her make her clients happier. Her nervous grumpiness faded and she was in a good mood by the time we got to Fort George Park. I felt like I was another person at this point. I was with a middleaged, drug addicted street whore. I felt low. She rolled a condom over my cock and sucked me for a few minutes before becoming paranoid about being caught. I don’t know how she did it but she convinced me to go back to her place. I did not want to be there… It was about as bad as I suspected.

Pulling into the driveway, my guilt hit me hard. I wanted it all to be over with, but more than that, I really wanted to get off. We got out of the car and were approached by the hooker’s drug dealer. The dealer was a fat white woman. My hooker looked afraid. The dealer pulled her off the front door steps by her hair and told me I was about to fuck a whore with AIDS. The next few minutes were the most embarassing of my life. I was watching two old drug addicts swear at each other and tell each other they had AIDS. It was so loud and still I didn’t leave. What the fuck was I thinking?? The fat dealer woman left and we went inside. It smelt like cheap cigarettes and chemicals. She tried to get me to give the rest of the money to her roommate. I said I’d give it to her when i was done. She was starting to get annoyed but i had something she wanted. We went downstairs and she sucked me with another condom for a few minutes. She started to get really pissed off that I wasn’t cumming. It wasn’t a bad blowjob but obviously I wasn’t very turned on. I closed my eyes and thought of previous, less disgusting sex I’ve had. It didn’t work. I told her I’d pay her double if she took the condom off. She was reluctant but agreed.

I moved to a mattress that looked like it was taken from a dumpster. I avoided stepping on a couple of needles along the way. She sucked me for a few minutes more and I got tired of her bitching. I jerked myself off while she licked my balls. I came and she handed me a paper napkin. I left and bought a pack of cigarettes. I was still horny. It was so unsatisfying. I texted a guy fuckfriend of mine and he wanted a morning booty call. I washed my cock in the sink at 711 and laughed at myself in the mirror. I had to laugh! I felt like a piece of shit.

I went over to his place and talked little. I soon worked my mouth down to his cock and we 69ed for a long time before he sat me down and slipped my cock into his ass. I rolled him over onto his stomach and fucked him hard and fast. I came inside of him, showered and left. I went home and haven’t answered his texts since. Nobody knows about this night. Nobody ever will. I still think I’m a good person. Reading through this story, I still can’t believe I did that. I love my girlfriend.

Many people on mysecrets.ca site have very steamy, erotic, and exciting stories about their first blowjobs. I will just share my frustration that I never shared with anyone. Most women I’ve ever had sex with lacked the patience it takes to make me cum while giving me a blowjob. I live in Cincinnati, Iowa; dated many women. They get tired or stop at the end. It’s a slow tease, dirty talk, passion that finally gets me off, when it actually does work. My first blowjob was from a 37 year old married woman who was cheating on her husband, and I met her on Ashley Madison in Iowa. She had a lot of trouble trying to please me with blowjob. After going down on me and lots of sex, I had to finish myself off. To this day, I haven’t found anyone who can make me climax with blowjob.

I am not sure why I cannot get pleased by any woman from a blowjob. I often wonder if maybe I would be pleased by a man giving me a blowjob. Maybe a woman doing it to me is not dirty or wrong enough. I am not sure what the problem is but I want so badly to cum in a woman’s mouth and I feel as though I have to find the one woman who can please me with a blowjob.