The Night I Gave my Dad a Blowjob
Saturday, October 6th, 2012Sexual abuse was nothing new to me, as I had been molested by both my brothers from the time I was 11. But, my dad had never done anything like that. I didn’t know at the time that my dad was sick and had put my brothers up to doing what they did to me. I guess in his weird and twisted mind he got off on it, or maybe he was having them get me ready for him. The thought of what happened on my 15th birthday still haunts me. My dad wasn’t my real father, he was our step dad, but still I had always thought of him as my dad.
One the night of my 15th birthday my mom had taken my brothers out to a party. I wasn’t allowed to go because I had been grounded. My dad offered to stay home and make sure that I didn’t go out anywhere. Of course, now I know why he wanted me in the house that night. I wish I had known what he was going to do. In one way I was afraid when he came into my room and exposed himself, but in another way I felt myself getting a little excited. I had never seen a grown man’s penis. I had seen my brothers but they weren’t like this. In my mind I was fighting the feeling of excitement and I was torn between horror and curiosity.
As he moved closer to me, I just froze. He didn’t say anything at all; he just had a glazed look in his eyes. I thought he was going to rape me and penetrate me and that terrified me as he was very well endowed. I suppose he knew he wouldn’t get away with that so instead he grabbed the back of my hair and pulled my face close to his cock. Then he said two words that I can still hear as clear as day. He said “Suck it.”
Out of fear that he might do something worse, I slowly put his cock into my mouth, but just a little bit of it. I knew there was no way his cock was going to fit into my mouth. But, he didn’t feel that way, as the next thing he did was so horrendous. He shoved my head hard toward him until I was gagging on his cock. I felt like I was going to suffocate. I tried to stay strong as I gave my dad a blowjob but he was hurting me and shoving it all the way down my throat. When he was ready to cum he told me I better swallow it or he was going to really do something to hurt me, so I had no choice, and I did what I was told.