I am an 18 year old girl living in Calgary and my secret is that I am in love with my cousin. I first fell in love with him 2 years ago when we spent all our Christmas holidays together at my Grand Parents house in Edmonton. It was so obvious that we were both into each other but none of us was willing to make the first move until about 8 months ago when he came to stay at my apartment to look for a place for himself in Calgary. He lives in Red Deer. While he was living with me I felt so comfortable with him that I would walk in my bra and panties around him. He seems to respond too. He got comfortable and started to expose more of him around me. One day while were having some drinks together, we both started to chat and then one thing lead to another, we both expressed our feelings for each other. We then spent our first of many nights together as a couple and of course enjoying each other’s company in intimate way. We have decided not to tell family about this as we were not sure how they would react to it. Now my cousin and I are planning to move to Toronto to live together as a couple away from family and their judgments. We are in love and that’s all that matters at this point.

I am 27 year old female, living in Edmonton. I moved here with my husband after we got married, from Victoria. I married him against my father’s advice. He was right. I have two beautiful children with my husband but I wish he was not their father. I am stuck in a marriage with a guy who is unable to grow up, who can’t support himself much less his family, and I left all my friends and family for him. I always make excuses for him and for myself for being with him. I blame myself for this. Now I am thinking I need help to get away and leave him. I can’t afford to leave or divorce him because of my children and I can’t afford to stay because of myself. I feel like I am trapped in this relationship. My dad was right and I wish I listened to him. My dad told me he’s a looser and he is!

I have been with this man for 18 years but 12 of it as husband and wife. Now I am reflecting back on my 18 years with him and realizing almost everything about him irritates me, even how much he loves me. We left our families back in Edmonton and we moved to North Vancouver. We have nothing in common, he doesn’t pursue me as he used to, and I have closed myself up completely and am just trying to survive this marriage. We have 3 children together. I have allowed myself to become overweight because I know that if I weren’t, I would find someone and leave. I do not take care of myself because of that fear. I also do it thinking he will eventually stop loving me. But yet, he stays and he loves me as I am. I wish he would just hate me because of my weight and not taking care after anything but he still loves me. If we didn’t have kids, I’d leave regardless of how I looked or if I had a job. I’m just not happy, or attracted to him, and am tired of staying because that’s the Christian thing to do. He doesn’t handle the family’s faith, the money, the bills, the discipline, he’s not a strong type of man and it embarrasses me. Sometime I feel like I am the man in this relationship. I think he’s stupid and boring and the way he disciplines our kids makes me so angry. I have no support system in place because we left our family’s disowned us when we moved here. And so I remain quiet and hope to survive. Maybe one day I will love him again or at least have the courage to leave him and divorce to move on to something new.

I hope I don’t get too specific in this secret. I live in Red Deer, Alberta. My boyfriend works at a accounting firm there. I usually take lunch to his work all the time as I don’t work. One day, as always, I brought lunch but I also brought pizza for all his coworkers. The appreciation I received from my boyfriend was indescribable. Little did I know that he and I would have dessert in the office restroom? We ended up fooling around in his office while all his coworkers were just outside the door. Then we ended up in the bathroom. Thank goodness I am pretty flexible because that bathroom was quite small. One of my hottest sexual experiences ever. Just writing about it makes me aroused. I miss that office for some reason, but my boyfriend, now husband, is in Edmonton. We relived that fantasy few more times at his new workplace.

I am 25 and I get scared sleeping alone. When I had my own apartment it got so bad I had to put my bed into the living room. I’d sleep with a knife by my bed and wake up at night staring at the door sweating.