My secret is that in one of my past relationships, I allowed my boyfriend to pressure me into doing something I wasn’t ready to do. He pressured me into having sex with another stranger while we were traveling to Prince George from Mount Pearl. The sad thing is I didn’t even love him. I did not know it at the time but I thought I loved him. I just wanted to be liked by someone so badly that I did something I would have not done otherwise. Of course he took some pictures me having sex with 2 other strangers and what hurts the most is that he later started to spared rumors about me that wasn’t true. I have never told anyone about it before because I know if any of my friends found out what i did they wouldn’t be friends with me anymore because my friends and family are very strict Christian. I know that’s not the kind of friends that I should have but truthfully I’m scared to find new friends because I’m not good with change. I just wish I never did what I did with this guy. It’s the biggest mistake I have ever made. I was young and I was stupid. Hope no one does anything to satisfy someone else’s twisted fantasy.

I met a girl at the University of Northern British Columbia. She is a freshman in my class. Things happened fast, we started dating. However, she wouldn’t tell anyone, she would lie to her friends about us being together. All I wanted was her, but of course so did everyone else. She was one of those hottest/coolest girls who is wanted by everyone but no one gets her. I was able to date her for few months but it ended as suddenly as it started. It is very painful but puts your life into different perspective. I was wasting my time with a girl that didn’t even want me. Now I am thinking about my ex. She was good, sweet, and I want her back. Problem is, she doesn’t want me. I know both of these girls are with the guys, I know for sure will not be there for them for long. Yet, they seem to be happy! They say be happy for the ones you love, but I can’t be happy!

Damn! I missed out on everything. I am a loser!

My biggest regret in life has been leaving my high school boyfriend. My relationship with him was the best I have ever had. We were together for 2 ½ years and they were the happiest times of my life. He comes into my dreams every now and again, and I want to be with him so badly. I miss the way he made me feel and the way he would look at me.

He has the life I have always wanted. He lives in a huge house and has that great job. He is married to a wonderful lady but I want him to be mine. I just think about what my life would be like if I was still with him. I wouldn’t be bouncing from relationship to relationship. I wouldn’t be living pay check to pay check. And I wouldn’t be struggling trying to raise two children on my own (no they are not his).

I know there is no way to know how life would have turned out if I was still with him but my time with him was the best in my life. If I could go back and redo things, I would try and hold onto him as long as I could. I am sure my life would be so much better than it is.