Hello my name is Rich, i love JACKING OFF especially in front of girls…it started as a kid with some girls in my neighborhood they tricked me into taking my clothes off…i got hard instantly.. and they played with me until i came…..i got so excited with them seeing me do that… i begged them to watch me play with myself until i came…they just laughed at me and brought some of their girlfriends to watch too…i couldnt say no ..it excited me so much i JACKED OFF when ever they wanted me too no matter who was watching..its embarrassing but i love that feeling along with cumming in front of the girls…

I’m a fairly respected person in my job, and I do my best to hide my sexual tendencies. I try hard to be a better person and make better choices, but I slip sometimes. I’m bisexual and if I haven’t had sex in a while, I will literally fuck anything that comes my way.

My girlfriend was out of town and I went out with the guys. I sobered up a while and drove home early in the morning. Stopping at a stop sign, a middleaged native woman on the sidewalk waved at me. I thought nothing of it and waved back. She walked quickly to my car window and asked what I was looking for. I told her I was just on my way home and she looked embarassed and walked away. I continued my drive but immediately my cock twitched and started to get hard thinking about what she had offered.

I turned around and waved her over. I had never been with a prostitute and my slight buzz assisted my awfulness here. She offered me a blowjob for $40, I agreed and she got in. She asked to have half of it right away and we made a stop at a house not too far away. She went inside and left her purse in the car. I felt terrible and knew I should drive away immediately. During my contemplation, she returned and we drove away. She unrolled the car window and lit up a crack pipe, complaining that her dealer sold terrible stuff but crack helped her make her clients happier. Her nervous grumpiness faded and she was in a good mood by the time we got to Fort George Park. I felt like I was another person at this point. I was with a middleaged, drug addicted street whore. I felt low. She rolled a condom over my cock and sucked me for a few minutes before becoming paranoid about being caught. I don’t know how she did it but she convinced me to go back to her place. I did not want to be there… It was about as bad as I suspected.

Pulling into the driveway, my guilt hit me hard. I wanted it all to be over with, but more than that, I really wanted to get off. We got out of the car and were approached by the hooker’s drug dealer. The dealer was a fat white woman. My hooker looked afraid. The dealer pulled her off the front door steps by her hair and told me I was about to fuck a whore with AIDS. The next few minutes were the most embarassing of my life. I was watching two old drug addicts swear at each other and tell each other they had AIDS. It was so loud and still I didn’t leave. What the fuck was I thinking?? The fat dealer woman left and we went inside. It smelt like cheap cigarettes and chemicals. She tried to get me to give the rest of the money to her roommate. I said I’d give it to her when i was done. She was starting to get annoyed but i had something she wanted. We went downstairs and she sucked me with another condom for a few minutes. She started to get really pissed off that I wasn’t cumming. It wasn’t a bad blowjob but obviously I wasn’t very turned on. I closed my eyes and thought of previous, less disgusting sex I’ve had. It didn’t work. I told her I’d pay her double if she took the condom off. She was reluctant but agreed.

I moved to a mattress that looked like it was taken from a dumpster. I avoided stepping on a couple of needles along the way. She sucked me for a few minutes more and I got tired of her bitching. I jerked myself off while she licked my balls. I came and she handed me a paper napkin. I left and bought a pack of cigarettes. I was still horny. It was so unsatisfying. I texted a guy fuckfriend of mine and he wanted a morning booty call. I washed my cock in the sink at 711 and laughed at myself in the mirror. I had to laugh! I felt like a piece of shit.

I went over to his place and talked little. I soon worked my mouth down to his cock and we 69ed for a long time before he sat me down and slipped my cock into his ass. I rolled him over onto his stomach and fucked him hard and fast. I came inside of him, showered and left. I went home and haven’t answered his texts since. Nobody knows about this night. Nobody ever will. I still think I’m a good person. Reading through this story, I still can’t believe I did that. I love my girlfriend.

Sexual abuse was nothing new to me, as I had been molested by both my brothers from the time I was 11. But, my dad had never done anything like that. I didn’t know at the time that my dad was sick and had put my brothers up to doing what they did to me. I guess in his weird and twisted mind he got off on it, or maybe he was having them get me ready for him. The thought of what happened on my 15^th birthday still haunts me. My dad wasn’t my real father, he was our step dad, but still I had always thought of him as my dad.

One the night of my 15^th birthday my mom had taken my brothers out to a party. I wasn’t allowed to go because I had been grounded. My dad offered to stay home and make sure that I didn’t go out anywhere.  Of course, now I know why he wanted me in the house that night. I wish I had known what he was going to do. In one way I was afraid when he came into my room and exposed himself, but in another way I felt myself getting a little excited. I had never seen a grown man’s penis. I had seen my brothers but they weren’t like this. In my mind I was fighting the feeling of excitement and I was torn between horror and curiosity.

As he moved closer to me, I just froze. He didn’t say anything at all; he just had a glazed look in his eyes. I thought he was going to rape me and penetrate me and that terrified me as he was very well endowed.  I suppose he knew he wouldn’t get away with that so instead he grabbed the back of my hair and pulled my face close to his cock. Then he said two words that I can still hear as clear as day. He said “Suck it.”

Out of fear that he might do something worse, I slowly put his cock into my mouth, but just a little bit of it. I knew there was no way his cock was going to fit into my mouth. But, he didn’t feel that way, as the next thing he did was so horrendous. He shoved my head hard toward him until I was gagging on his cock. I felt like I was going to suffocate. I tried to stay strong as I gave my dad a blowjob but he was hurting me and shoving it all the way down my throat. When he was ready to cum he told me I better swallow it or he was going to really do something to hurt me, so I had no choice, and I did what I was told.

I moved into a small row house in South Philly almost 3 years ago. The neighborhood is mixed race and mostly poverty level families here. My devorce left me broke and this house is all I could afford. I’m 38 and have a decent job but have only had sex with one woman since my wife dumped me. I work hard 5 days a week and didn’t have the time or the money to go out trying to pick up girls. The first 6 months I lived here I was like a hermit and the only sex I had was with my hand. I’m not sure why but I just began staying naked all the time and I often masturbated twice the same night and forget about it on weekends where I would jerk of 6 or 7 times.

Then one Saturday afternoon there was a knock on my door, I put on a robe and when I answered the door there was a heavy set older asian woman telling me her daughter and a few other girls saw me naked. She didn’t give me much time to say anything but finally I was able to say I didn’t know and that I was sorry and then without thinging about it told her I was a nudist. I shortly found out that her daughter never told her she saw me naked but her mother overheard her and her friends talking about it. It was the following Friday night when someone was knocking again. This time it was the daughter and another girl who was a white girl. I was naked as usual and only opened the door enough to see her. When the mother was here the previous week she left the impression that her daughter was a young child. When I saw the daughter and other girl I knew right away they were both about 20 years old. What she said suprized me because she apoligized that her mother came to my house and then bluntly asked if I was a nudist. I responded that I was and then she told me that she and three other girls had been spying on me for months. She openly told me that they can see into my house from the alley between my house and my next door neighbors house.

This asian girl was very brash whereas the white girl never said a word. She could only see my face and asked me my name telling me her name was Sara and her friend was Kimmy. Then she ask me if I was naked. I hesitated a moment or so and admitted I was. I think I told them I was sorry they saw me naked but she interruped and said it was ok and they liked to peek in at me. I didn’t even realize it right away but I had a raging hard on just talking to her. I was even more aroused when she informed me that she and the other girls saw me masturbating a few times but she used the words jerk off. Thats when I became dispicable and said if they didn’t mind seeing me naked I would let them come inside. Neither of these girls is very pretty but the thought of exposing myself became exciting. All she said before they came in was to ask if I had anything to drink.

When they walked in I still had a bit of an erection but it had subsided a little. For the first time Kimmy talked and told me I had a nice body for an older man. By the time I got to the kitchen to get them a beer I had a full erection again. I offered them to sit down and something I had never down before, I just stood there letting them look at me nude with a hard on. As we talked I found out the Asian girl is 19 and the white girl is 22. We talked for a long time and eventually my penis went limp and Sara informed me how she watched it go down and only smiled about it.

Before they left I told Sara she and her friend was welcome anytime even telling her when I get home from work and that I am home on weekends most of the time. As soon as they were gone I masturbated. When I got up Saturday morning I went into the alley and over to the living room window where I coud see into my living room at the bottom of the window. The alley is cluttered with 2×4’s and other peices of wood that belong to my neighbor who is an older man that I still don’t know very well. It was a full week before Sara came back, about 8pm Friday night. This time Kimmy was with her again but also another white girl named Rose. Of course I was naked and never hesitated to let them in and give them a beer.

Kimmy and Rose are fairly quiet and don’t say much but Sara is the oppisite. They were here for about two hours and the only thing Rose asked me is why I am naked all the time. I just repeated what I told Sara’s mother that I was a nudist and added that I liked being naked. Sara never shut up the whole time and about 20 minutes before they left asked me if I would jerk off for them. She added the fact that I had an erection off and on since they first came in. The only other female to ever see me jerk off was my ex wife. I took hand lotion out and put old newspaper on the floor and masturbate in front of them. I had no embarrassment doing it and I enjoyed how they were intently watching me and smiling the whole time. I tried not to cum right away but within a minute or so I ejaculated. The following week I met Rita who is white and obviously Italian decent. Out of the four of them Rita is the most attractive one but even she is not what I consider pretty. Within only a few weeks I had turned into an exibitionist. If they were willing to come into my house, knowing I am naked, I decided to take full advantage of it. None of them dressed very nice and they never wear anthing I considered sexy but the thought of them seeing me naked got me aroused everytime and I began masturbating for them everytime they were here.

They usually come over for sure once a week, generally on Friday nights. Sometimes two or three would come over on Saturday but I never knew for sure when they would come. After about a year Sara brought another girl who is a light skinned black girl. Once again not at all pretty and very heavy also. I often hinted to have one of them jerk me off and after a year or so Sara is the only one who will do it. When they come on Frdays I always have pizza and beer for them and I am always naked when they come in. Kimmy and Rose have gotten more talkative. I let them ask me anything and have become so comfortable being naked in front of them I lay in my recliner and move myself around even exposing my anus to them. Sometimes Rita will touch my penis and testicals but she still refuses to masturbate me. Sara seems to like doing it and and makes fun of me as she does. She squirts the lotion on me and rubs it on my scrotum and penis before she actually jerks me off. She’ll ask me if I’m going to cum and stop for a short time before she has me ejaculate.

I never did anything like this and can’t believe how I have become so immodest. I am basically humiliating myself in front of these girls but I get so aroused when they see me naked. By the time I jerk off or have Sara masturbate me the amount of semen I ejaculate is not normal. Sara has told me she never saw a guy have so much cum in him. I know she has a boyfriend but doubt if she ever mentions me to him. When Sara jerks me off I lay back in the recliner bend up my knees and open my legs as much as I can. I do this just to fully expose myself to whoever the other girls are here that given night. They stand or sit all around me and just watching them look at me turns me on. Its something that should humiliate me or at least embarrass me a little but the only feeling I get is arousal. Another thing I can’t figure is if these girls think I am such a perv why would they keep coming every week. I know its not just for the pizza and beer so they must like seeing me naked and seeing me masturbate. They are all around the same age but Sara is the youngest. She is also the most outspoken one and I think she must like jerking me off. This is not something I can talk about with my friends or family and I’d be very ashamed if any of them found out what I have been doing. They would think of me as a pervert and to an extent I guess I am. I have absolutely no modesty around these girls and Rose often asks me to show them my anus. How humiliating would that be but to me its just another way to expose myself from the back of me.

Another thing I do sometimes is let them watch me pee which oddly enough was Kimmy’s idea. Thats only been going on for about 6 months. I only said I had to go pee the one night and thats when Kimmy asked to watch. Sara and Rose were here that night also so all three followed me to the bathroom. Again, no embarrassment as they watched me. As sick in the head that I think I am sometimes I don’t think these girls are wrapped to tight either.

One of my first memories was of my babysitter. I was 3 years old and my teenage babysitter had disappeared to the bathroom. Being a 3 year old I went to go check on him and he greeted me at the door with a (it seemed enormous at the time) huge erection. He told me to put it in my mouth. I was really confused and ran away. He must have felt bad, as he came out fully clothed and we didn’t speak of it.

I often think back on that event… and wish I did put his cock in my mouth. I would still love to suck his cock. I imagine me taking his throbbing cock in my little mouth and have him pump his hot cum down my chin.

I’m a 27 year old man and I love fucking women. I love everything about women… but sometimes, every once in a while… I fantasize about sucking cock. I want cock in my mouth, on my lips. I want cum in my mouth and on my face. I know this fantasy comes from my babysitter, because every time I suck a man’s cock, I think of him.

If I could meet him again, maybe I’d get over my need to please other men orally. I don’t know.