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Couples swinging experience that we regret

Saturday, February 26th, 2011

We live in California and this past weekend my girlfriend and I ended up fooling around with another couple that we met on Ashley Madison affair site. Aftermath of reality is not going well for us. We didn’t expect it to be so hard to take. The fantasy of seeing my girlfriend sexually involved with another guy seemed hot at first and then reality set in. We both had to stop when we were doing the deed with this other couple. I don’t think this is going to hurt our love for one another in the long run (well, I hope not) but we know now the difference between the fantasy and the reality. She is really having a hard time believing what she tried to do and her morals are not strong enough for this type of lifestyle. I am trying to blame it on the drinking because it was was a big part and influence of this encounter that day. My advice all those who are trying out this swinging lifestyle, take one step at a time. Meet your potential match at a bar, flirt, then go from there. We thought we were swingers and ready for this lifestyle but we learned the hard way that we are not.

I regret I was an escort!

Saturday, January 8th, 2011

I am 21 year old female now living in Vancouver. I was an escort at 18 when I was in Prince George and then moved to Nanaimo making 600-1000 a day. I only did it for 8 months but those eight months were the lowest, most depressing 8 months of my life. I was kicked out of my house, thrown out into the real world with no money, just desperate to get myself together. My step mom and dad both threw me out just before Christmas and it was cold and I was totally broken. I considered stripping, but I was stage-shy and the places in Prince George were not classy for stripping. Then I decided that escorting would be more private and more money. I had no idea how much I was hurting myself or how I was ruining my future. I would get drunk or high before any “date” and would silently cry during the dirty deed. I was not associated with any agencies in town like thekaliproject or blackorchid. I would use Craigslist to find people. I have been with married guys, single guys or guys who just wanted to get off. I have been with old, young, middle-aged guys too. Most of the encounters happened in cars or in a motel room. I realized within few days I would be regretting it, but the money would temporarily cheer me up, until I would have to do it again.

At the time I didn’t feel anything but now I realize I hated how addicting the money was, but I just kept giving myself away to these dirty men who didn’t understand and didn’t care about what I was going through.  I then moved to Nanaimo for a change of scenery. But it was same old same old. I found older guys, married guys, and younger guys looking to get off quickly by using me at their convenience. I know I put myself in the position, but I was just young and careless. If I knew how it was going to affect me psychologically and emotionally, and that it was going to eventually leave me with STD, of course I wouldn’t have done it. I completely disrespected myself, my body. I feel dirty no matter how many times I shower. I can never forget what I did and I can really never forgive myself.

This is my story. I hope before you chose this life style please think. Times can be tough at times but be true to yourself.

I still regret having an abortion

Wednesday, January 5th, 2011

When I was a teenager and growing up in Orlando Florida, I got pregnant with my 16 year old boyfriend at the time. I thought I was in love and got intimate without protections. After I got pregnant, I was talked into an abortion my boyfriend. My family disowned me after I got pregnant and I was very scared at the time. When we went to that clinic they did no counseling before the procedure. I didn’t realize what abortion was until I got one and it was too late to stop. I have cried about for about a year and I can’t let go of what I did. I still wake up at night with nightmares. I have prayed to God for forgiveness but I can’t seem to forgive myself. I will never do something so selfish again. If I could go back to that day I would change it. I regret this abortion all the time. It was 22 years ago!

Confession of an unethical journalist

Sunday, January 2nd, 2011

I am a retired journalist living in Arizona. Over the years, I have written a lot of things that pissed many people off. Some of the time, I had no choice. Some of the time, these people had it coming. But other times, I might have gone a little hard on some people for the benefit of my articles and in attempt to please my boss. I knew it was unethical journalism but I still did it. I now regret it. I wish I was an honest journalist. I was very successful in my reporting but now all those seem so lame. Journalism is a strange thing, a big ocean full of currents. Sometimes you get sucked under. I am thinking of set the record straight. I am thinking of blow the whistle on myself.

I regret not having children earlier

Thursday, December 30th, 2010

I am 37 and had a former beau, love of my life, in my early twenties. We met in college and were planning our future together. I decided I wanted to wait to get married and have kids because I wanted to focus on my career at the time and just living life. The love of my life died in a car accident. I have never found anyone that I connected with so deeply ever since and never had children. Another thought that weighs deeply on my conscious is the probable fact that if we did get married sooner etc., that would have changed everything in our lives and he would have likely never been in that car accident and still be alive. We were engaged for almost two years when I lost him. I missed out on a decent fulfilling life because of my fears and doubts. Now I regret it. Life is too short. I still miss you Jake!